Dickie

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Everywhere I looked, I couldn’t find it.

I looked into my friends, it wasn’t there.

I looked into my family, it wasn’t there.

I looked into my love one, it wasn’t there.

I searched deep within myself.. still it wasn’t there.

The will to strive for excellence, it was nowhere to be found.

Nor is the will to even leave bed.

Falling ill reassured me that hope is lost.

I searched places unimaginable.. even in movies/clips.

For I was in desperate need of guidance.

Realising that there are worse scenarios out there didn’t comfort me as it once used to.

As I believe that one should look up and compare to those up high instead of those down below.
But it does keep me down here on earth.

I need time, by myself.

To find my soul. My motivation. My will.

I’ve searched everywhere..

I need time still.

DicKieS


Saturday, September 19, 2009

Things that were once taken for granted would somehow and someday be slapped in your face in the worst way possible.

I sincerely appreciate those who stood and still standing by me through this harsh period of mine. I have had my share of bad moments where nothing seemed to be right but what happened recently was nothing compared to those times. A benchmark in life it was.

I am not proud to share my experience here in public but I am sure those who know about the incident are those I am proud to have in my life.

It wasn’t easy at first as everything happened in just a short span of time and it also got me thinking of why life is being unfair, but it all came at the later part, where It got me realising that there are lessons to learn from all that.

Beautiful family is. Beautiful friends are. Beautiful love is.

Grateful I am to still be here to share the joy and happiness with the people I have in life. Those who have gone and passed, I am glad to have lived amongst them.

I shan’t go further like an emokid but I’m ever so grateful to still have people around me who care.

On another note, Massha and I have reached our 1st year together as a couple.

All the ups and downs we had. All it ever did was got us closer together.

To many more years to come my love.

I love you dearest. Truly do.

DicKieS


Friday, August 14, 2009

Motivation. It comes from many places or people for that matter.

It can sometimes be as hot as the blazing flames and it could sometimes just be for a spur moment. Whatever the source or reason for the motivation be, it is definitely something that pushes people who in turn push their limits and break barriers.

Stories of such people who we sometimes see as extraodinaires. They fight for a cause. Be it for love, lust or passion. Many of such drives us and gives us what we know as, motivation. Intrinsic or extrinsic, it works well in leading people towards their goals.

But to what that makes an individual able to continue burning his flames of motivation, despite all the challenges and obstacles encountered by him, defying them and continue fighting and pushing his limits, is something not many are able to do.

On many occasions, it withers instead of flourishing into yet another burst of motivation.

So what makes us stronger? I believe it all depends on each and every person.

I was made aware recently of the 7 sins which we, men are always being tempted with, and I can't help to think that motivation could somehow intertwine with them. Motivation I mentioned really depends on whether it is driven intrinsically or extrinsically. The 7 sins which i spoke of could well be the drive to these two main motivating factors. In a nutshell, motivation also has its motivation(driving factor). And this is how it's possible.

Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, Pride.

Take your time and digest it. I honestly believe that majority of our decisions made everyday is being influenced by these very 7 sins.

Here are some daily examples;

I want to be rich and successful in life. Pride? Greed? Or simply the lust for riches?

I hate my boss, and i wish he'd die a terrible death! Wrath? Envy?

There are many more example out there which i dread to mention and i need to highlight that these application of the 7 sins to our thoughts and decisions need not necessarily be true but it could just be one of the many reasons. That, i would leave it to you to decide.

I would like to further state my point that men including some of us have definitely one way or another been tempted or even committed at least one of the 7 sins. We sometimes even use these sins to motivate ourselves. And here are some of the signs which I believe are signs of the mentioned 7 sins.

Fornication, rape, adultery, incest, perversion, just some of the many examples of such lust in which we humans commit to. It is through such lust some men would be motivated enough to kill. They would go defy all odds just to satisfy their “needs”.

Theft, robbery, trickery, bribery, murder and many more examples of men’s doings are just the very few in which we men commit. Ultimately, it is inevitable that any one of our actions is closely related to the 7 sins that we are all aware of.

It is nature at its best. We humans can use them to power our thoughts and motivate us into achieving our goals, be it of good nature or bad. Some sins even motivate us unknowingly.

And like I said, not all our actions are driven/motivated by the 7 sins but I am very sure that men, as we are, there would definitely be a chance that we were once poised and tempted to at least one of the 7 sins.

Have you?

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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

So training is on-going. We're short of time but we're doing great so far.

To us, its not much on the speed but the consistency. Training days are on Monday,Tues,Thurs,Saturday. Honestly, its been awhile since i felt such commitment in something.
So yeap, our goal this year is the Standard Chartered 2009: 42.195Km.
However, before that, we're going for RunNUS on 30th August: 12Km.

I see that the RunNUS is a totally different ball game altogether. Somewhat like ippt 2.4km run, its all about the timing,..

Oh ya, did I mention that the Singlet for RunNUS this year looks awesome?



And one more thing.. I think im gonna name this preparation for marathon. . . .

*DRUMROLLS*

OPERATIONS EYE OF THE TIGER!

lol.. okbye!

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Monday, July 13, 2009

Refreshing it is to listen and recite the Scout Hymn again. Different from reciting the national pledge which agenda is to instill patriotism in oneself, the Scout Hymn is something that allows me to reflect on myself and my goals in life.

Now, how often do you find that in a song nowadays..

----------THE SCOUT HYMN------------

Now as I start upon my chosen way,

In all I do, my thoughts, my work, my play.

Grant as I promise, courage new for me,

To be the best, the best that I can be.

Help me to keep my honour shining bright,

May I be loyal in the hardest fight,

Let me be able for my task, and then,

To earn a place among my fellow-men.


Open my eyes to see the things as I should,

That I may do my daily turn of good,

Let me be ready, waiting for each need

To keep me clean in thought and word and deed.


So as I journey on my chosen way,

In all I do, my thoughts my work, my play,

Grant as I promise, courage new for me

To be the best, the BEST that I can be.

---------------------END----------------------

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Friday, July 10, 2009

Never will I see People's Republic of China like I once used to.

I've been doing a little research on my own in the heritage and history of Chinese History, not just during the Imperial times, but also on Ancient China.

I used to be very captivated by the stars up above. Reading extensively on the formation of galaxies and whatnots,

but, I came to a realization that there is only so much information I can aquire from Astronomy.

I never liked history especially in Secondary School because the thought of just memorizing the necessary information and vomitting them during exams make me nausea.

I prefer leisure history. Thats what I call it now. To read, digest and learn. There are just so much to know about Chinese history.

I feel that History has got many lessons for us to learn. Compare a man back then and a man now. So much difference.

Valour and gallantry of that of a historic person is something I admire greatly. In other words, you dont see much balls around that often anymore. heh!

And the literature.. wow.. dont get me started on that. Such beautiful language man used to speak.

I'm so into the History of China to the extend I keep striking conversations with my PRC friend in class and she was so nice to share pictures of China to me and also abit on its' history.. Coolness..

Looking forward to many upcoming adventures ahead!

DicKieS




The security within oneself is adequate.

Shielded by our own thoughts and believes, sufficient.

Allowing blood to interfere and mingle now is trivial.

Smiles you see,

merely vague images painted.

Painted on cold porcelain masks.

Deceiving. True. Shattering.

Severe all ties, befitting.

DicKieS